a rant

Wow, it has been quite a while since I updated this blog. I'm sorry, a lot of things, complicated stuff, going on right now. I don't have the luxury of time, or even the energy or interest, to really "surf" the net.

My sister's getting married and moving out next month. Early this year, I also decided to move out of the house once she leaves, as initially suggested by my sister. So I started looking for my own place and fortunately, I found a good one, and can start moving in early next month. When I told my mom, she was obviously upset. I understand her worries as a mom. Anywhere in Manila is a dangerous place, living alone is a big risk to take. But I want to try to be independent now. And for reasons that only me and my sisters' know, moving out is a smart decision, even if it is a little risky.

Now I feel like I just told them the worst news they could possible hear ever. Na parang may nagawa akong masama na hindi na ako pwede mapatawad.

This too shall pass...

Here's a toast...

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon


I will really miss you, ding! Enjoy your much needed rest and vacation. I will see you soon. =)

*photo courtesy of Rica E.

LP #14 Tatak Pinoy

Kahit saan... sa kalye, sa beach, sa katabing karinderya... patok na patok talaga sa mga Pinoy ang INIHAW! Isaw, betamax, adidas... matibay ba ang sikmura mo? =)

LP #12 Itay

Itay...
Kahit gaano ka man kakulit...
Mahal pa rin kita...

Marunong ka rin pala mag emote? Hahaha!

Margo

Family will always be family.

Thanks so much, cuz! Thank you for everything! I love you to bits!

LP #11 Kalayaan

Minsan ba nararamdaman ninyo o naiisip ninyo na para kayong preso na nakakulong sa sarili ninyong bahay? Isang hakbang lang, nasa inyo na ang kalaayaan. Pero dahil sa mga iba't ibang limitasyon, hindi nyo ito makamit?

...

Something I got from PostSecret:

"No one knows what a struggle it's been lately... but I held on one more day."

I don't usually rant in my blog but this time I'm desperate. I can't say why, I can't share the details because, to quote Hazel in her blog:

"As much as I would love to talk about it and shout it out to those who would listen without being judgmental. I simply can’t because, they will get judgmental. They will think bad thoughts. They will speak behind our backs. They will ruin us."

To my friends, please don't ask for details, and please don't take it against me if I don't. Just tell me what I need to do to survive an ordeal... if I can't go out as much as I would want to anymore. I'm just so lonely.