Monday, November 02, 2009

This is It

In my whole 8 year stay in the company, about 7 years of that were spent chanting "magre-resign na ako!". and yet i still stayed for 8 more years.

But now I feel, this is it... anytime I will go. It's just a matter of waiting for 8 more months or in the next few weeks.

I have asked for signs that say that I should stay. But all I get are signs that I should leave. Maybe I'm just biased, I don't know. I just can't find any more reasons to stay.

Friends have left, at least one per week.

Stomach cramps are very frequent now, every time the thought of it enters my mind.

I'm smoking again, heavily this time. I am capable of finishing an entire pack within the day.

I just got back from a vacation and thinking about returning to the city makes me want to throw up.

I'm losing appetite everyday.

I may be weak, but I have never cried this much about work before. Morning and night.

I'm having heartburns. I get mad every single day.

So telll me... is it still worth it?

Next question, what will I do after?

What I really really want - a looooonnngg good vacation. Far, far away. To restore my mind and refresh my soul. And clean my lungs.

What the majority say I do - No breaks. Have to look for a job while working and once there is one already, I can start right away. Practical.

This is all so bleah.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

To my friends

It's quite sad to realize that you can't keeep the friends you want to keep forever. I can't help but assume that they move away because either I did something wrong or I didn't become the good friend that they want me to be.

Or maybe everything just isn't meant to be.

To my closest friends, I'm sorry kung marami akong pagkukulang...

Thursday, December 04, 2008


I made an entry about them a few months back.

And now, may nag reunion at naga-attempt mag comeback ala Take That... from "boyband" to a reformed English pop-rock musical group.

And isa lang masasabi ko...

ANG BAKLA!!!! bwahahahahahaha!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

I'm alive!

after almost 3 weeks of being bored at home... i'm finally back online! yahoo! I thought it would take forever for PLDT to install my DSL.

But being bored does have its advantages. I'm now sorting, cleaning, and throwing away all the trash I brought from the house. That includes meaningless stuff from grade school - college. And it was really nostalgic, reading all those letters and notes and whatnots. I'll blog about it sometime.

So now, salamat naman at may internet na rin ako haaay!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

on hiatus... again

Just moved in to my apartment last Sunday, and i still don't have internet. Plus, my monitor's busted. So it might take a while before I can be online again. I'm here at an internet cafe right now. Haaay life!

Kerol/Plee, tara inom na tayo dun! No smoking nga lang hehehe! =)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Aahay... had a picture of you in my mind

Listening to old songs make me happy lately. The songs of my generation, 80's and 90's rock, pop, and yes, high school music!

Hello boyband!! *paging Plee bwahahaha*

Fine, laugh! But this song has been on loop in my mp3 player since yesterday. I won't deny that this upbeat song was, and is still, my only favorite from this famous but now defunct Brit boyband. Hindi ako fan pero masaya talaga yung song eh. Hehehe!


I want to post the video, kasi natatawa talaga ako sa kabadingan ni Stephen Gately. Ahahahahaha!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

LP #22 Ayaw Ko!

Haaay salamat naman at mayroon na rin akong akda. Matagal din akong nanahimik sa LP.

Mahilig akong maglakbay. Pangarap kong makapunta, kung papayagan lang ng oras at bulsa, sa lahat ng mga magagandang tourist destinations di lamang dito sa Pilipinas kundi sa buong mundo.

Yun nga lang... takot akong sumakay ng eroplano.

Maraming beses na rin akong sumasakay ng eroplano pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na kabahan ng sobra pag papalapit na ang petsa ng aking paglipad. So paano ko ito nakakayanan? Dasal lang ng dasal!